the case of the ex.

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 09:40 AM on August 5, 2005.

it's been 7 mos since we broke up.

funny but i still think of her atleast thrice a week. teeheehee..

what if we're still together?

what if its her hand i'm holding instead of acrit?

there are so many what ifs running inside my head.

and its gonna be that way.

when she left me.. for good. she waived her right to be with me.

and there's no turning back.

knowing her, leaving me is just a piece of cake.

basta ang importante masaya siya.

nakita ko yun nung huli ko syang makita.

masakit ng konti, kasi parang di ko sya nakita ganon kasaya nung kami pa.

but then..

isa lang ang alam ko.

minahal ko sya sa paraang alam ko.... ♥

Currently listening to: sleeps with butterflies
Currently feeling: melancholy

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I'm back for the nth time

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 09:29 AM on August 5, 2005.

Hooray! i'm back at tabulas again.

I have 3 blogs now. one from livejournal and blogdrive.

this will be my not so public blog.

anyway.

my dod died wednesday morning.

i guess i'm already over it. but i still miss him.

can't blame me, tomi's such a darling.

but i know wherever he is, he wants me to move on.

and i am done with that.. at least that's what i know :D

♥

tomorrow i'll be with acrit. just a little bonding before i start my midterms.

whew.

i'm loving her more each day.

ah.. the beauty of falling in love.

damn. the last time i felt like this was ages ago.

it's so nice to be back. Ü

Currently listening to: mario's how could you
Currently reading: deception point by dan brown
Currently watching: ah i'm blogging :D
Currently feeling: working

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rainy monday..

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 11:14 PM on November 29, 2004.

sunday events muna...

coffee session with mae, miel and blue.. then "nagtulak" kay green.. eating session naman sa gerry's grill (blue wave).. wawa naman blue, sleepy na sha, may saket pa.. get well soon.. mwahhh!! nag blowout pala sis ko, first sweldo eh.. nagpadeliver sha ng pizza sa house, and then nagpadala rin ng money for my lolo and lola sa bicol.. wow.. such a nice grand daughter.. buti pa sha.. *sigh*

now for today's events...

i woke up around 10am, makulimlim na.. non stop ang ulan, and lumakas sha bandang hapon.. may bagyo na nga.. i didnt do anything productive today, except setting the table.. nga pala, around lunch time, napag-usapan si karisse, my sister's close friend.. her sister is my batchmate wayback in hs..sha pala nagpapa-aral kay karisse (sa ust po),nagcomment naman dad ko, "buti pa yun".. so kanino sha nagparinig? syempre saken na naman.. hehe.. so i replied "fyi, i WANTED TO WORK SINCE I GRADUATED 2 YEARS AGO.. sino ba pumigil saken? diba kayo?".. there.. in a normal tone po yan ha..

so i just realized, if im working na, ako magpapaaral sa kapatid ko? huwaaaaat?! i'll work for myself, and if may sobra, that's the only time i'll help.. besides, i'll work to pay for my tuition... that's already a big help for my parents no.. all they have to worry is my brother's schooling.. saka... i'll be turning 23 na on january..feeling ko, im TOO OLD to depend on them.. i have to work to sustain my needs.. :D

no offense sa mga call center people ha, pero.. AYOKO talaga magtrabaho dun.. if i'll have it my way, i want a normal job.. 8-5.. kaya lng, mas ok ang pay dun eh.. saka, bitchy ako.. pag ako may irate caller, baka di ko mapigil sarili ko ( may mute naman daw.. hahaha!!).. ehekz.. i want to help, pero i don't know if i can handle customer service.. waaahhhh... i want to consider directory assitance.. i don't know.. bahala na.. basta i have to look for a part time job muna..

Currently listening to: walang sabit.. hehe
Currently feeling: cold

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so near yet so far..

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 12:19 AM on November 28, 2004.

ok.. pasaway na ko.. absent na naman ako sa property...
pano ba naman, i was online till 4am, i can't sleep eh.. and then i woke up 9am, my class starts at 1pm.. wala pa ko nabasa.. harharhar.. eh kung mtawag ako? ano isasagot ko diba.. anyway, since december na, sisipagin na ko mag-aral nyan.. lapet na xmas vacation e.. whew...

so instead of staying home at maalala ang problem ko, sumama ako sa knila sa UST.. exam kse ng bro ko dun tom.. on our way there, mejo napag-usapan yung 'nursing'.. i remember before ako magdecide to quit med school, sinabi ko sa mama ko na gusto ko na lng mag nursing.. syempre andon yung pera eh.. saka kahit pano nung time na nagsuggest ako nun, meron pa kong desire to work sa hospital.. of course di pumayag mom ko.. then nagulat ako when my dad said out of the blue na.. palagay ko, ayaw mo na naman ng law.. ano na kaya matatapos mo? ganyan ka rin dati nung nasa med ka pa eh.. tapos sumabat naman ang ever loving kong bro na "call center na lang daw yan, parang sira, maswerte ka nga di mo na kailangan magtrabho eh.. so anong nasabi ko? wala.. i was speechless for about 10 secs.. para kong numb.. tpos nanlamig na buong body ko.. eto lang nasabi ko.. "what's wrong ba sa call center? eh andon ang pera e.. plus, i want to PAY my own tuition fee, buy my own books.. jusko i was so nervous baka maiyak ako! my mom rescued me though, saying na i was just giving my opinion.. geez mom, for a moment i want to tell her na , diba dapat proud pa nga kau saken? i want to work..to earn my own money para wala na kayo gagastusin.. and para i can live my life na the way i WANTED it..

haaayyyy naku... hehehe... atleast im thankful na may hint na sila about my situation..

ibang topic naman...

nagtampo ako kay blue.. slight lang naman.. well kse ganito yun, may eb.. gusto ko pumunta.. pero d raw pwede si mae, so i decided na wag na tumuloy.. ang alam ko naman, blue's in tagaytay.. aba nalaman ko ang bruha nasa makati pala!! gumigimik amp!!! hehe.. nainis lng ako e.. kasi sana ako na lang niyaya niya, gusto ko pa naman sanang lumabas.. i still feel bad about it, pero what can i do? cguro maiintindihan ko rin sha once makahanap na rin ako ng friends sa work..for now kse im STILL trying to understand..

Currently listening to: walang sabit.. hehe
Currently feeling: stressed

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Posted by SunKiSs3d at 11:38 PM on November 25, 2004.

if i'm given a chance to go back in time, i will definitely choose my dlsu days.. life back then is what i would describe as 'bittersweet' but somehow, since i was able to spend it with my 'barkada' it became easy.. i soooo damn miss those days.. and thinking about those times makes me feel so damn sad..

you see, i'm the eldest.. i have one bro, who by the way, won 4 gold medals from the current events contest (he was consistent, from 1st-4th yr, NO ONE ever came close).. and my sis.. my intelligent sister.. the apple of the eye of my parents.. a CPA, graduated with academic distinction in college.. graduated top 9 over all in hs.. and now working in P&A.. eversince the board exam results came out, she was bombarded by quite a number of auditing firms wanting to have her as part of their team.. i was happy for her of course.. but still, you can't take away that part which hated the most.. the part wherein i will be compared to her.. i grew up believing that my sister is superior to me, especially when it comes to academics.. she is a constant dean's lister in college.. i remember being happy whenever i receive a grade of 1.0 (passing grade), i remember my parents criticizing each and every grade i have.. aral-aralan mo naman.. ang mahal ng tuition mo eh.. ouch! i really felt i owe them every single cent.. that was why i wanted to move out of this fawking house as early as 18..

i never told them about my graduation.. i don't want to celebrate either.. it's just an ordinary day.. nothing special.. for me, graduation means going to the next stage.. med schooL.. i was having second thoughts about it, but it was my mom who pushed me.. saying that "anong gagawin mo kung di ka tutuloy? teacher?!. so there, to make the story short, nagquit ako sa med schooL.

to be continued..

Currently listening to: reflection
Currently feeling: depressed

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pinakatamad sa lahat ng tamad...

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 05:13 PM on November 25, 2004.

the title refers to yours truly.. sheesh.. i was determined to go to school despite the transport strike (since i have incurred 2 absences from this subject already).. around 1:25pm, i received a text from blue saying that she's on her way to sm and if i want to meet her.. of course i said yes.. and so there.. she went 'shopping for a while', and we decided to take a break by having coffee at beraldi (i had cappucino, yummmy!!)..and so that's when i realized it was 4:45pm already!! my class starts at 5:30pm.. haha.. so there.. MY THIRD ABSENT for this month.. good luck na lng saken next week,, anyway i was thinking that since there is a transport strike, those students who werent able to attend the class today will be excused.. why not diba? :D

shout outs!

GA: sorry for the bitchy txt msg last night.. i was really in a bad mood..

besplen: nokia 6600 na nga lang para wala na kong problema! lol

blue: thanks for today.. i had fun.. kahit absent ako.. bagay sau yung salamin.. plamis.. hehe...

GWEN:bruha absent na naman tayo!! ano ba?! welcome to the world of unlimited calls and text!! :D

JA RUL3Z!!!

Currently listening to: huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
Currently reading: partnership
Currently feeling: lazy

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wednesday madness..

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 10:58 PM on November 24, 2004.

finally, na-meet ko na rin prof ko sa taxation 1.. ok naman sha.. yung subject hindi.. hehe.. 67 pages to read plus 20 cases due next meeting.. and sabi nia konti pa nga daw yan..really now?? waaaahh!! good thing CPA ang sister ko.. bwahahahaha!!

ibang topic naman...

peeps.. help naman jan.. ano mas ok? 7610 0 6260?

natatawa ako sa mama ko, for 2 consecutive days, sobrang nagger!! parang napapansin lahat ng bagay dito sa house, ultimo yung upuan na nadumihan ng aking doggie na si keni eh pinagdiskitahan..

Ma: Sino na naman naglabas ng upuan? MAGANDA PA NILABAS! nadumihan tuloy!
ako: I don't know, pero pwede naman linisin yan.
Ma: kahit na! inaalagaan ko pa naman yan!
me: MA! calm down! i'll clean that for you ok?!
MA: nasaan si emma (househelp)?
me: Umuwi na.
MA: &*#&@*# ang aga umuwi di pa pinasok to

LOL.. chair lang yan ha.. tpos kung anu-ano pa sinabi.. sya kasi gumamit ng city (manual yun e).. dami reklamo.. na kesyo sumaket daw paa nia and everything... hay naku ma!! pero kahit ganyan yan, love ko yan! mwaahhh

sana weekend na.....sigh...

Currently feeling: tired

2 sentenced me to death

my grown up xmas list..

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 11:44 PM on November 23, 2004.

xmas is just around the corner, it wouldn't hurt if i list down the things i want to have.. who knows? a kind heart might give me one of these.. take ur pick.. msg me if u want to have my address.. haha :D (in no particular order)

1. toyota altis or honda accord :D
2. a roundtrip ticket to bohol, iloilo, davao,palawan or bora.. (i want to travel..)
3. nokia 6260 or 7610
4. teddy bear..or any stuffed toy
5. final fantasy 8 lighter.
6. ipod
7. a mug from seattle's best or starbucks
8. a brandnew discman (any brand will do)
9. kitchie nadal's cd
10. JOB!

Hmm.. not bad.. hehe..

Currently listening to: what can i do
Currently reading: partnership
Currently feeling: creative

4 sentenced me to death

tuesdays with Janice..

Posted by SunKiSs3d at 11:16 PM on November 23, 2004.

hehehe.... so how's my title? im texting someone pero kanina pa nia ko ignore, so fine.. kung ayaw nia eh di wag.. wag pilitin ang ayaw diba?

anyways...

wala ko class today so sa bahay lng ako.. as usual i helped with the household chores, buong araw din akong nanood ng tv (no assignment yet for tax so relax mode pa ko..) nung morning i was able to talk to ga about her gf.. mejo nagloloko pa signal ng sun.. but around 5pm umayos na sha.. kung kelan naman umayos, saka naman ako dinedma ng mga katext ko.. ah ewan ko sa inyo!! tomorrow it's my turn naman!! hmp!!!

naiinis pa ko kay blue, sabi ko kse sa knya, wag na lng kme magbaguio sa xmas vacation dahil may kumakalat na saket dun.. ano sagot saken? eto lang naman.. ok po.. haaayyy naku.. alam nio ba, namimiss ko na nga boses nyan sa fone e, puro text lang kme.. kahit weekend, i can't talk to her dahil it's either she's having a team bldg, or sleeping.. and pag gising nia, tulog naman ako.. then pag sunday, lagi rin wala sa bahay or marami ginagawa.. same goes for me.. ang hirap talaga pag sa call center ka nagwowork no.. i can't even remember when was the last time sinabi niang mahal nia ko... don't get me wrong ha, i aint complaining.. it's just that, napapansin ko lng.. i envy her team mates.. atleast, she's with them 9hrs/day.. bummer....

alam ko you're reading my blog.. gusto ko lang malaman mo nagtatampo ako..ayan, pinatay ko cp ko.. bahala kau magtext at tumawag saken.. leshe.. kung kelan ko kau kelangan wala naman.. hmphhhh!!!! dedmahan tau kung yan gusto nio!

Currently feeling: annoyed

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